1.6.1 This Journal is...

This Journal is…

A project. A goal. A beginning. I have to be able to dedicate time to writing and developing my skills. To eventually write a novel. Or three. Even if they’re never published, even if no one likes them. Even if Matt thinks that they’re garbage. I believe that this journal can serve as a marker, a starting line, a jumping off point for my inner creative spirit. Crochet is a physical exercise of expression, but I want to build something more ethereal with words, and this is where I’m starting from. And I will not allow myself to turn back.

1.1.12 Dream

Dream

I had a dream that I can’t remember anymore. It was so vivid and colorful, full of ferocity, heartache, tragedy. I wish I could remember it because it would make a wonderful story, one that I could write and develop and study until I captured the essence of the dream, and found the story that I’m meant to tell.

It’s happened before, the dreams, not the storytelling. This was all long before writing became a goal, a hazy, fanciful flirtation that has now developed into a fully blown rose, serious and sensual.

Goals always seemed like such dry, practical, unimaginative things to me, so imagine my delight in discovering that they can be fantastic and wonderful in the truest meanings of the words.

Alas, it faded too quickly for me to capture, too quickly for me to even consider jotting it down. And now I must wait until it visits my dreams again.

BONUS ACTIVITIES

BONUS ACTIVITIES

I found these in Pen on Fire by Barbara DeMarco-Barrett, which is a good read so far, if you’re interested.

Bonus #1

Imagine how you’d like your life to be, 6 months, a year, 5 years from now. Focus on the dream, and envision your future the way you’d like to live it. Are you a full time writer? Describe your work, your writing studio, how you spend your days, what you will write. Don’t skimp on the details.

Bonus #2

Write a letter to yourself about your plans and projects and dreams as a writer. Outline your ultimate goal. Share your most extravagant dream. Encourage yourself to accomplish these things.